talking for real this time.

i’m planning to buy my new camera within the week. one that records 1080p videos. i want to make videos. i don’t know what exactly yet but i’ve been really interested in trying vlogging. and maybe film some stuff if i go to goodwill or something. i know i’ve said that i would do it before, but i’m for real this time. i really really want to try. to be honest, before, i used to make videos with my old friends and stuff and i would have fun editing the video. it’s something that i really enjoyed. i’ve been wanting to do this for awhile, but just never knew what my friends would think. i’m always so self conscious. but now, i’ve actually asked my friends wha they think and they’re okay with it. they won’t think it’s weird. david is obviously on board with it. haha i’ve heard he’s a camera whore. but anyways. i’m so excited to actually start this. i won’t record everyday like ctfxc but i’m mostly going to record things that i do with my friends. even if it’s just playing league of legends. i don’t care. 

i want it to be like a diary. so that when i look back on it i can remember all the good times we’ve had. right now, i just write what i do everyday and what i do with my friends in my planner. it’s like i want to remember more than what i write down on paper. i’ve always been a visual person so if i look at old videos and things like that, i can remember easier. and being honest, i can say that maybe one day i want to be like ctfxc and shay carl. they actually have a career making videos everyday. just of their daily lives. it’s just so cool. to me at least. i just honestly don’t know where i’m going with my life and i really want to try this out because if i like editing videos and filming, then hey. maybe i should just give it a try. and you never know. i could get lucky. patience is a virtue. i can only pray that something good will come out of this. i do want viewers and subscribers but i just want to do it because it’s fun. 

since my friends and i are one big family where we all get along and have inside jokes and i love them so much, i would want to include them. i’ve asked them and they’re okay with it. so we’ll just see how this goes. hopefully everything turns out well. and i also talked to mika tiffany about making videos. i love her. <3 hehe. i hate feeling alone when i want to do something so having people that are like “okay. let’s do this. go for it.” just makes me feel so much better than i did before about this subject. 

another thing is that we want to be like tsm. haha have a gaming house. live with eachother. hang out everyday. just being happy. that’s what i would want. i want to be happy. i know i have to finish schoool so that’s kinda first on my list. but i would always choose hanging out with my family/friends over school. it’s just me. i’m just not a school person. so one day. have a house together. all of us live together. just having fun. :P when i’m rich and famous! LOL

some might think it’s crazy and some might look at me weird. never know what could happen. i just know that i’m not going anywhere with my life so i need to try something. something that i like. i obviously hate school, but i am trying to finish. so i leave this here hoping that i can look back and say that i did what made me happy.

“My name is kristenmariko, and I dropped out of school to become a professional League of Legends player, and a professional Vlogger.”